Pandemonic pariah 2
I guess I’ve always
feared people would look too deep
and see what I am.
I guess I’ve always
feared people would look too deep
and see what I am.
So refined
and sublime
but don’t be jealous;
you’ll get your wish,
just give it time.
It writhes inside me,
blacker than the Devil’s hooves,
looking for release.
Love takes great courage,
we relax and show others
our failures and scars.
These accursed butterflies
fill my stomach up with lies;
they say to hold her tight
not tomorrow, but tonight –
desperation crystallized.
Love can be twisted,
full of tests and trials grounded
in fear and worry.
I want
to hear you say,
not say but shout instead
from the rooftops for all to hear,
my name.
We all like to tease,
those we love the most, perhaps
to see if they’ll stay.
In the worst moments,
I believe the terrible
things my heart tells me.
Sorry
that I hurt you;
that wasn’t my intent.
It just sort of happened and then…
And then…
you got angry and went away
and I had time to think
and now I’m not
sorry.